You have no idea what I have been through.. This is such a long day.. I just came home from school... and what an exhausting night..

Last night, I was studying for the departmental exams for our Bio 20 Lab and Math 17.. I got tired a bit and I slept a bit early.. around 10.. I planned to wake up at 12 to continue studying but I was too tired to wake up so early, so I slept until 4:45.

I arrived in school at about a quarter to 7.. I was very nervous because I haven't finished studying.. Good thing, our departmental exam in (the dreaded) Math 17 would still be later at about 5:30 in the afternoon.. I still have about 4 1/2 hrs of breaktime.. enough time to study.. I just studied for our Bio 20 then.. Mr. Regaspi, our Math 17 teacher, gave us some exercises to help us study and answer in the super hard questions in the Departmental Exam.. I understood the lesson, yes, I really did.. I just hoped at that time that the DE would not be so different from what he discussed...

After that came our Bio 20 Lecture.. Our teacher Prof. Ragragio gave us some free time after she lectured us so that we can review for our DE in Lab.. I was really nervous for this is my first time to take a Departmental Exam.. :scared:

The time for our DE in Bio 20 Lab came.. it was I think about 65 items.. more or less... it was TRICKY.. yeah.. that's the right word.. some are fairly easy while some are quite hard.. :dookies: :splat: The exam was Move System.. It was fun.. the hard thing is, you can't go back to the previous question once you passed them.. there's no turning back.. boohoo...

We were dismissed earlier than the usual.. My friend, Chike, and I went downstairs (from the 5th floor of GAB to ground floor) to find someplace to eat.. we decided to eat in the cafeteria.. It was cheaper there than in Robinsons.. anyhoo we waited there and reserved a seat so that the four of us (steph, joyce, chike, and me) could sit and eat there.. we have to save time, money, and effort.. steph and joyce joined us afterwards.. but too bad, there was no more food for them so they ate at Robinsons McDo.. They returned to GAB Canteen at about 1:30.. then we were off to the University Library.. We traversed the long and windy road with the hot scorching sun above us.. We arrived at the University Library 30 minutes later.. :soju: :ashamed: Tired and sleepy we were.. But sleep must not hinder us from studying.. Joyce studied till 2:45 because she still has a PE class.. Fortunately for the three of us, we had our PE last Tuesday.. anyway.. The University Library is very spacious.. It's cold inside.. We were shivering there.. I tried to work on the previous DEs.. I finished one Sample Test w/in 2 hrs and 15 mins.. that's because I wrote the whole test and then answered it.. It was fairly easy for me.. I just hoped then that the real DE would be as answerable as that.. :boys: anyway... As 5:30 is fast approaching we hurried back to CAS.. We are going to have our DE in the Little Theater.. When Chike and I arrived there, the students were still outside the Theater.. After 10 mins, we were allowed inside.. (why not, we are having our DE there..) so we were inside and a prof or proctor arranged us by courses.. Turns out, Pharm would take the DE with Intarmeds and Biochemists in the room.. (i was wondering if there's a chance to beat those Oblation scholars..) anyway, the test started.. the first part was kinda answerable.. after answering 3 parts of the test, Mr. Regaspi announced 15 minutes more.. WHAT???!!!! 15 minutes to answer the PROBLEM SOLVING PART!!! OMG!! that was like a hundred items.. lolz.. just kidding.. :soju: :dookies: :sour:

the DE made me feel like a dunce.. like I am not worthy of being there.. like I am no good in Math.. waaah.. I was about to cry when the teacher announced, "BALLPENS UP!" OMG.. i still haven't finished answering.. Why is it so hard anyway?? Is it just me or is it really Hard?? hmm.. need comments..

I feel like a DUNCE.. :dookies: :soju: :goggle: :splat: :sour: :goggle: I feel like a Dork.. that test would really make you feel really bad.. I just hope I would pass that test.. i don't want to take the finals.. If the 1St DE ws that hard, what about the finals.. I would be much harder.. huhu..

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bout fresh.. i realized, i'm not over him yet.. how do i tell Fresh that he IS Fresh? how? maybe, i won't tell him..

"Love in silence.. For in silence, you find no rejection.."

What a great quote.. yeah..that's what i would do.. just love him in silence.. but fresh knows about fresh.. we talk about fresh.. i wonder how he doesn't sense that it's him.. my goodness.. he's kinda numb.. oh well..

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oh well.. tomorrow, i just hope that i could watch Spiderman 2.. If i wouldn't be able to watch that, i don't know what you'd call me.. i haven't watched LOTR 3.. HP 3.. and if i can't watch Spiderman 2, i'm gonna go berserk.. !!!!

Currently listening to: NFSU Background Music
Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: crushed

I watched Spiderman 2! Yes! at last.. (not a dream come true).. lolz.. dramatic? nah.. i would not know what to do if i haven't watched this.. OMG!

I was with Fresh.. haha.. just joking.. i was with Kelly, Alex, Vhone, and Mikey(Vhone's cousin)..

(to be continued...)

*i am really in a hurry.. and i'm not in the mood to recount everything.. this would go into edit mode tomorrow..

Currently listening to: Time Stands Still
Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: accomplished

It's just drama.. plain drama.. i wrote something in 5 sheets of bond paper.. sort of a diary entry.. well.. it was a supposed-to-be-diary-entry.. but i can't place it here.. it's so private.. or maybe i would.. *wink*

I'll think about it.. it's kinda long and it would be very troublesome for me to type.. unless someone offers to type it for me.. hehe..

so there.. i was really in a bad mood a few hours ago.. ewn ko ba kung bakit.. kasi naman si kelly eh.. nakakabadtrip sya.. 1st time kong mabadtrip sa kanya.. di ko na matake ang mga pang-aasar nya sakin.. huhu.. sige na.. *ugly na ko.. ugh-ly..

*cries in a fit of rage

*di ba nya alam na it hurts.. it hurts.. i'm a girl..

Currently listening to: *drumroll
Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: annoyed

oh gosh! I really hate him.. i hate him so much!

*cries and whimpers*

Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: angry

Agree or Disagree??

1. Tests have shown that women rate 3% higher in general intelligence than men, although their brain size is smaller. (I don't get this.. don't we all have the same brain size?)

2. Women are walking radar detectors, that is why men have difficulty lying to women. Their brains have the ability to integrate and decipher verbal, visual and other signals of body language. Hence women will always be safe when faking an orgasm. (As a woman, i can say that i am more sensitive than men are.. No comment..)

3. Women want lots of sex with the men they love. Men just want lots of sex. (well, i don't wanna have sex!)

4. When men flirt, they will lower their pitch of voice. Women will raise theirs. (hmm.. mapansin nga..)

5. Women talk and think aloud while men do them silently. As a result, men think women talk too much and are nags. (nagger or not, whatever..)

6. Women talk about their problems as a way of relieving stress. They want to be heard, not fixed by being offered advice and solutions. (yeah.. great!)

7. Speech and words are not a specific brain skill for men. They find it hard to express themselves. That's why they often choose greeting cards with plenty of words inside. That way, there's less space for them to write. (haha.. may kilala kong ganito.. bday ko.. tapos ang sinulat lang sa card ko ay ang name ko.. hehe.. *laughs as memories rush..)

8. Women leave men, not because they are unhappy with what he can provide, but because they are emotionally unfulfilled. (teka.. kung ganito.. women are really insatiable.. hehe.. i admit, i am insatiable.. pero oo nga.. women leave men because we are emotionally unfulfilled.. the big question is: what would make us feel satisfied?)

9. Women use an average of 20,000 communication words, sounds, and gestures a day. Men only use about 7,000. (what does this imply? this is an understatement..duh...)

10. So if a woman is talking to you a lot, she likes you. But if she's not talking, you're in trouble. (haay.. sana si fresh alam to diba? tsktsk.. di ko na nga kinakausap yon eh.. kasi galit ako sa kanya.. ang tanong naman.. ano ibig sabihin kapag ang guy di kinakausap ang girl?)

11. Men are more thick-skinned than women. Literally. Which explains why women have more wrinkles than men. Boys lose their sensitivity to touch by the time they reach puberty. So where does all that sensitivity go? It all goes to just one area. (nyahaha.. eh di kailangang i-touch yn? eww..)

12. If a woman is unhappy in her relationship, she can't concentrate on her work. If a man is unhappy at work, he can't focus on his relationship. (nyek.. weird talga..)

13. Men can only do one thing at a time. When they stop their car to read a street directory, they have to turn down the radio. Women's brain are configured for multi-tasking performance. They can talk on the phone, watch the TV and cook at the same time. (yeah! that's what we call being natural.. boohoo to men!)


14. Most men get a brain hemorrhage after 20 minutes of clothes shopping. (malas nila.. they don't enjoy the fun of shopping..)

15. When it comes to sex, women need a reason; men need a place. (sana reason na lang pareho..)

16. 15% to 20% of men have feminized brains. About 10% of women have masculinised brains. So there are more gays than lesbians in the world. (which is really a poor thing.. kasi konti na nga lang ang boys.. karamihan pa ay gays.. tsktsk..)

17. Most women prefer sex with the lights off because they can't bear to see a man enjoying himself. Men like the lights on - so they can get the woman's name right. (see?)

*haay.. wala talagang kwenta if one would point out the discrepancy between men and women..

Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: thirsty

*nakita ko ito sa friendster.. at sa ibang blog.. makikigaya na rin ako.. (i saw this in friendster and in other blogs.. i'll go with the flow then..)

msrap b mgmahal?
-- oo naman.. pero ewan ko ba kung bakit sa lahat ng pagibig.. nauuwi lahat sa luha..

mhirap b mainlove s taong may mahal ng iba?
-- tanong ba to??!! oo naman!!!

mahirap b pag may taong sobrang mahal k pero d mo nmn mahal?
-- hindi naman.. actually, i feel flattered pa nga eh.. mahirap lang kapag yung tipong stalker type.. it really freaks me out..

mahirap b pag mahal mo,mahal k pero d pedeng maging kau?
-- bakit di pwede? pwede yan.. lahat may paraan.. kung gusto..

mahirap b pag pinagpanggap kng bf/gf ng mahal mo para pagselosin mahal nya?
-- oo shet sya!

God is giving u just 5 more minutes to live, anong 3 bagay ang sbihin mo s taong mahal mo?
-- una, i love you so much.. 2nd, i hope you'll never forget me.. 3rd, i hope you loved me too and goodbye!

Pinaka heartwrenching words n ssbihin sau ng mahal mo, kung saan maiiyak k tlga pg cnabi sau un?
-- i love you... (in an unexpected way, time, and manner)

Ano ssbihin mo s isang taong ayaw mniwala n mahal mo sya?
-- di wag.. kung ayaw mo.. wag mo!

Ano ms msakit? iniwan k,niloko k,pinaasa k,o pinaniwla k n mahal k nya kht may mahal syang iba?
-- duh.. lahat... pero ang pinaka ay ang paniwalain na mahal nya ko.. kasi naman eh.. bat mo sakin gagawin yon? pinamukha mo lang akng tanga.. &^$% ka!

ws der ever a time n tlgang pinag-aralan mong mahalin isang tao?
-- bakit ko naman gagawin to? at ang alam ko.. di pinagaaralang mahalin ang isang tao.. kung talagang love mo.. love mo..

can lovers be friends after d break up?
-- no way!!! hiyaan na yan..

ano msasabi mo s taong sobrang possesive?
-- ayoko! i hate yoU! ayoko sa lahat ay yong possessive.. ako ay isang free na tao.. i value freedom.. and i am not yours..

ano msasabi mo sa taong sobrang seloso/selosa?
-- *#&! magbgo ka..

ano masasabi mo s mga taong nagpipigil s love?
-- magpakatotoo ka!

ano masasabi mo s mga playboy/playgirl?
-- aba.. aba.. sige.. kung kaya mo..

ano masasabi mo s mga salawahan?
-- kapal mo naman!

Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: crushed

*my comments are inside the parenthesis...

- letting go of a person u've just learned to love (yes.. this is true.. the question always is: why so soon? why let go just right now? now, when i love you..)
- reminiscing the good times u shared together(so, so true..)
- shielding ur heart to love somebody (why should i do this anyway?)
- trying to hide what u really feel (o yeah..)
- trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall (*sniff) from ur eyes (waah...)
- loving a person too much (because you can't fall out of love with him..)
- giving up someone u never thought of giving up (really hard to lose someone..)
- having the right love at the wrong time (i don't agree.. there is no such thing..)
- taking the risk to fall in love again (does this really hurt? is it not joy that you should feel?)
- hiding ur relationship from someone else (*sniff)
- controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend (damn.. *sniff)
- thinking of him every waking and sleeping moment (i hope he's thinking of me too..)
- knowing all the while that he never even thinks a single thought of you... (waah!!!!)
- letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper. (sad..)
- holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out (this is a case when love exists between friends..)
- falling inlove with someone you didnt mean to
fall inlove with (oh gosh.. how could you work this out?)
- finding the perfect guy...with only one prob....he doesnt love you... (oouucchh!)
- helping the one you love "make ligaw" to your
friend (this sucks! *whims..)
- seeing the one you love crying for someone else (what a tearjerker..)
- the waiting also hurts like hell (yes.. the waiting really does..)
- having to hear "... I've met someone" (ouch!)
- agreeing to his wish to 'just be friends'. (ouch!)
- asking his freedom back bcoz 'he'd be happier with her' (ouch!)
- asking u to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again. (ouch! after all this time..)
- hearing that you're treated as a little sis.. (ouch!)
- sharing his future plans for the girl with you.. (waah..)
- stopped being friends bcoz his gf asked him to. (What the heck?!)
- being denied in front of people (ouch!)
- telling u lies where he'd been when actually, he was with a 'new friend' or 'old flame' (break na tayo..)
- he told u he'd be leaving u to return to his ex (goodbye!)
- breaking someone's heart (...)
- fighting for that one thing that would make you happy that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his commitment unless he fix himself...then, you are left hanging for the moment... then he says, time will tell...ang labo lang niya...but you still decided to hope in him and trust him .. ggrrr!!!
- PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying... (BEEN THERE, DONE THAT!!!)
- PRETENDING to be strong.... and RECOGNIZING your weakness (...)
- lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have... (why does this happen to me all the time?)
- being with someone you can't actually love... (same as above..)
- pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love... (its really hard to pretend..)
- being in love... (what hurts is when you feel all your dreams clash..)
- letting go even if you really don't want to...
- having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
- seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person... (so true!)
- having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before
- having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable (so in love!)
- admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections (this does not really hurt, right?)
- finding out that the more you try to hate him, the more you end up loving him, perhaps even more than before (this is really true! *true with fresh)
- the thought that this guy, used to really love you and you loved him as well but you didn't give enough and so he gave up on you (hmp.. ganon?)
- Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else..... (bawal share..)
- making a promise....and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be delivered....the commitment is no longer there...
- the hardest thing about love - believing it exists. (indeed..)

Currently feeling: contemplative

masarap talaga ang feeling ng IN LOVE...

lahat naman tayo naiinlab...

pero marami sa atin ang INFATUATED lang...

both LOVE and INFATUATION are sure to live as up to cloud 9...

pero MAG-KA-I-BA sila...suriin mo ang nararamdaman mo...

ang INFATUATION ay matinding paghanga...

it is an instant desire...

matindi ang iyong pagnanais na makasama ang isang tao...

samantala, ang PAG-IBIG ay tila nag-aalab na pagkakaibigan...

ika nga, it takes root and grows one day at a time...

kusa itong sumisibol...

hindi ito padalos-dalos o pabigla-bigla...

kapag ikaw ay INFATUATED, may feeling ka of insecurity...

hindi ka mapalagay...

oo nga at excited ka ngunit hindi ka totoong masaya...

sometimes, you doubt him/her...

sometimes you always ask but seems to find no answer...

may mga bagay din tungkol sa kanya na gusto mong malaman...

at pag hindi mo ito magustuhan, like hindi mo pala gusto yung taste of clothes niya, you'd feel very disappointed...

it might shatter the image you've built about him/her...

LOVE, on the other hand, understands...

it knows that your loved one has imperfections...

ito ang totoong pag-ibig...

binibigyan ka nito ng kalakasan...

you even feel his/her presence kahit na malayo siya...

distance is not a hindrance for your love not to grow...

you're sure he/she is with you in spirit...

of course, you want him/her near...

but near or far, you know he/she loves you as much as you love
him/her...

you can wait for him/her...no matter what...

when you're INFATUATED,

you tend to say that you want to get married as soon as time possible...

masasabi mo na," I can't afford to lose you!"....

samantala, when you're IN LOVE,

you don't rush into anything...

you're patient...

you don't panic...

you plan your future carefully...

INFATUATION is smart with sexual excitement...

you want constant intimacy with him/her...

samantala, LOVE is a maturation of friendship...

it is always best to be friends first before becoming lovers...

pag INFATUATED ka,

iniisip mo na baka nagiging unfaithful na siya
sa'yo...

LOVE is trusting the other person...

you know you can trust him/her...

and by feeling this way,

he/she even becomes more trustworthy...

dahil INFATUATED ka,

maaari kang makagawa ng mga bagay na maaari mong mapagsisisihan in the end...

but with LOVE, you are sure of your every move...

maginhawa ang iyong pakiramdam...

you function well...

nagiging mas mabuti kang tao pag alam mo na pag-ibig nga ang iyong nararamdaman...

think about it...

think about the difference between

LOVE and INFATUATION...

you know, GOD is NOT a killjoy in love affairs...

LOVE is HIS idea...

He wants you to enjoy the REAL THING!

but......you have to be WISE!

or else, you might MISS it out...

worse, you'll just break hearts

or find yourself singing,

"sinaktan mo ang puso ko..."

after all, you're not settling for second best,
right?

SMILE! God LOVES you!!!Ü

"But if we hope for what we do not yet have,

we wait for it patiently..."

Romans 8:25

"Be still and know that I AM GOD."

Psalm 46:10


*isa lang narealize ko.. di ako infatuated kay fresh.. its love actually... pero bakit ganon? galit ako sa kanya? kasama na ba yon sa love?

Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: confused

i've created a TROPANG PAUSO account for tropang pauso of course.. where we can post entries there.. and you can get to know us better.. i've spruced it up a bit.. so i hope it would do before i can create a template for tropang pauso.. or i could ask demi to do it.. right? i hope she would agree to do it.. anyway..

it was really fun last night.. Handog sa Freshmen.. The performances were really great and i love the freebies! *wink* crush ko rin yong male singer ng FAT TUESDAYS.. don't care if he's fat.. ang ganda ng boses nya.. sobra! watch out for their upcoming album this 2nd sem.. i promise you that you'll definitely fall in love with their music.. cOOooLL..

so.. next time i'll update you on what's happening around me.. i just need to study now.. by next week i would have more time to blog everyday.. (hopefully).. don't forget to add me and Tropang Pauso as your friends..and join my communities too.. 1) Art Lovers and 2) Pilipino Ako.

thanks a lot!

Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: giggly

pagod ako...

bakit?

kakatapos ko lang magtest kanina sa bio 20 lab namin.. i got 28/30.. pwede na.. pero sayang naperfect ko na sana..

ano ba ang buhay ko sa up? kaasar nga eh.. kasi.. di ko pa nakikita ulit si mario dun.. hmp.. lam ko naman na may girl na sya dun eh.. hehe.. magselos daw ba? :knockout: :loveeyes:

anyway.. may crush ako sa skul.. madami.. babae at lalake.. pag may crush bang babae tibo na? ganon ba yon? i really admire the girl kasi may beauty and brains sya.. (aprille, alam mo kung sino to.. :P) pareho kasi kami ni aprille ng crush.. hehe.. well.. iba eh..

kanina sa math 17 time namin.. buti naman at di na ko tinwag.. dati gusto ko na tawagin nya ko for recitation kaso di nya ko tinatawag.. ngayon naman.. lagi nya na ko tinatawag.. ayoko kasi sumama loob ko sa kanya.. di magnda yon.. pano ba naman.. magrerecite na nga.. at sasagutin na ang tanong nya.. pagdududahan pa ako.. tama ba naman yon? as if.. :scared: :soju:

mejo madali na ngayon ang lesson namin sa math.. di katulad nung 1st month.. kasi nung una, puro sets, etc... eh nung highschool di naman kami nagfocus dun masyado.. ngayon..ang topic na namin ay ung equations na.. mga linear system, etc.. mga quadratic equations, etc.. mas okey to..at least eto napagaralan ko talaga ng husto noong highschool.. mahirap mag aral sa UP.. eto lang ang masasabi ko.. pero masaya.. bakit? kasi madaming BG? hehe.. hindi.. pero hindi nga.. 1 of the reasons un.. masaya kasi iba't ibang klase ng tao ang mamimeet mo.. andun si 'black' at si 'babae'.. hehe.. pauso naming term..

masaya din dahil kapitbahay namin ang Robinson's place ermita.. biruin mo ba naman, konting lakad-lakad lang at holler.. andun na kami sa rob.. madaming kainan at maraming bilihan.. nakakakita pa kami ng mga basketball players at mga artista.. hehe.. pinakamemorable yung kay joseph yeo ata ng la salle.. di kasi ako mahilig sa basketball eh.. pero yung 3 kong friends mahilig.. hehe.. kaya yon.. grabe. ang gwapo at ang tangkad nya.. sobra.. at ilang inches lang sya away from us.. hehe.. kilig na kilig nga mga classmates ko eh..

anyway.. madalas ko na nakikita si knelson sa UP.. kewl nga eh.. hehe..

gusto kong sumali sa soro.. joke lang.. feeling ko wala akong oras para dun.. ang hirap kasi sa pharm.. super 'toxic'..

sa mga kaibigan ko naman.. 10 lang pala lalaki sa block namin.. at 40 kaming lahat.. at duh.. kalahati lang ang matuturing mong 'lalake' sa 10 na iyon.. hehe.. buti pa sa hs namin.. batch namin ang malinis.. walang bakla at kung ano pa.. ay meron pala... pero di considered.. hehe..

so.. yon lang naman.. miss ko na mga friends ko sa parsci.. at believe it or not, di ko pa nakukuha diploma ko.. :P

Currently listening to: Let Me Be The One by Jimmy Bondoc
Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: bored

eto na naman ako.. syempre.. galing sa isang photo shoot.. hehe.. kala nyo bigtime? hindi.. kameraworld lang.. hehe..

eto na ang pic.. kasama ko jan sina chike, joyce, at steph.. sino ang prettiest? hehe.. syempre lahat kami.. (ows.. maniwala? hehe..) ayon.. si chike, ang nakaupo na nakagray.. si steph ang nakapink at nakaskirt.. si joyce ang nakatayo na nakagreen(halatang LaSalle fan).. :P

matagal na kong di nagfFRriendsTer.. miss ko lang..

gusto ko ng caramel frap.. :(

gusto ko gumimik.. at gusto manood ng The Prince and Me.. makakarelate kasi ako eh.. hehe..

may gusto ako kaninang shirt.. pero di ko nabili... as usual, the problem is.. papagalitan ako.. for sure.. di bale.. next time na lang..

sa totoo lang, excited na ko mag-sembreak.. aside from the fact na break sya from UP.. makakapunta na rin ako sa tiangge.. kung saan makakabili ng bag na 300 pesos lang.. pati mga sneakers na 300 pesos lang din.. o diba? tipid.. hehe.. mukha namang orig eh.. gusto ko rin kasi makatipid.. ganon pala style ng mga classmates ko.. para makatipid.. buy factory rejects.. hehe.. ok naman daw ang quality eh.. la lang.. try ko lang..

ano pa bang masulat? wala na ata.. except na wala lang.. meron pa palang kwento..

kanina sa history I namin na class... di ko kinaya.. di naman talga ako affected.. andito kasi si "babae" at si "boy".. grabe sa katamisan.. lalamgamin.. (tama ba spelling?) basta.. kaasar.. attention: di ko crush si "boy".. pero grabe.. sana naman lumabas sila ng room.. nakakadistract sila sa mga nagaaral dun.. eh nasa likod ko pa sila.. well.. masasabi na rin na fl*rt talga si "babae".. eh may gf na si "boy" eh.. kaasar.. maglampungan daw ba sa harap namin.. todo! ayos! di ko kinaya at nagdahilan akong nasiCR ako para lang makalabas.. dinwit ko na rin ang 3 kong kaibigan.. paglabas.. diretso CR at don nagconference.. the nerve ni "babae"!!! alam naman ni "babae" na may gusto kay "boy" ang isa kong kaibigan.. grr!! di muna ko pumasok ng classroom.. buti na lang at laging late ang teacher namin.. pumasok lang ako nung madami nang magiging kasabay dahil for sure stop na ang kanilang "Session".. *pukes* eto pa.. lumabas nga silang dalwa ng room.. sana kanina pa nila ginwa.. ever!!!

Currently listening to: So Young by The Corrs
Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: angry

bakit ganon mahirap ang PE namin kanina? siguro may kanyakanyang time kung kelan magshashine ang kagalingan sa PE.. baba tuloy ng score ng group namin.. puro talo kami.. kailangang bumawi!

bakit ganon si "boy" at si "babae"? bakit ganon ang kanilang relationship? sila ba? imposible.. may gf na si "boy".. parang major TO kung si "boy" ay nagt-two-time diba? grr!!

bakit ganon at wala pa kong nabibiling gusto kong shoes simula ng nagpasukan? hanggang dreams na lang ba to? lagi namang kasing bawal eh.. for sure.. sasabhin na "alang pera".. WTF! lagi naman eh..

bakit ganon at wala akong pera? bakit?

bakit ang UP Manila ay katabi ng robinsons place?

bakit ang entrance ng Anito ay may design na pang kiddie theme park??!!

bakit ang labas ng PGH ay mausok? hindi ba nakakamatay yon?

bakit sa PGH libre ang pagamot? kasi libre din ang pagkuha ng sakit?

bakit sa rob place may mga daga?

bakit sa PGH madaming daga?

bakit madaming daga?

*buti na lang at di sila lumilipad.. (shudders at the thought)

bakit hate ko ang daga?

bakit madaming nagtatanong tungkol kay fresh? bakit ba?

bakit madaming curious tungkol sa lovelife ko?

bakit madaming walang pakialam?

bakit sikat si angelo dela cruz?

bakit walang kwenta ang 10pt agenda program ni PGMA?

bakit bagsak ang ekonomiya ng Pilipinas?

*last na..

bakit ang dami kong tanong?

sana masagot nyo tong mga to..

Currently listening to: 100 years by Five For Fighting
Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: high

sige.. una sa lahat.. gusto ko batiin ang mga butihin kong kaibigan..

may sakit ako ngyon..

hindi to labnat.. lagnat talga..

nanood ako ng IMELDA noong sabado...at grabe.. di ko alam kung pano magreact.. everything was about love and beauty..

"It easy to be beautiful because it's natural."

giniginaw ako..

hm.. may concert ang hoobastank.. (tumatanggap ako ng libreng tickets.. hehe..)

at saka sa july 30.. may concert sa folk arts theatre.. shet.. i forgot... we have a test pala in botany lab sa araw na yon.. at test sa comm 1 at math 17 the next monday.. hm.. at may affair nga pala sa CAS.. foundation day daw.. at sasayaw ang butihing math teacher namin..

hm.. may hinanakit pa rin ako sa kanya.. what the heck! ilang beses nya na kong tinatatwag pero ang name ko ay di nya masaulo.. grr.. kabertday nya ata ko.. malas.. haha. yoko ng may kabirthday eh..

may nakatingin sa tinatayp ko..

ano ba to?

ike: pupunta ko sa mini theatrical show mo.. uhm... if i have money.. what time ba? let me know..

aprille: oh no.. ayoko na kay MR.. may BG na naman sa UP eh.. hehe.. si miko, niko, whatever. clasmate ni mae que.. pero super daw sa yabang? hm..

bout the barreto family feud.. no comment.. isang malaking NO COMMENT! bahala kayo..sana you kept things private na lang.. for the sake of mankind..

hm.. si kelly. ala lang.. tanong ng tanong kung sino si fresh.. hm.. ssabhin ko kaya? syempre hindi.. bwhaha.. ako lang makakaalam non at ang mean girls.. nyahaha.. lam mo ba.. pinarecopy ko pa yong mga pic para sayo.. pero sige.. ok lang kung ayaw mo.. text mo na lang ako kung gusto mo pa nung pic na yon...

eto muna.. hanggang dito na lang.. giniginaw na talga ako.. brr...

Currently listening to: A Little Bit by MYMP
Currently reading: Insomnia by Stephen King
Currently feeling: shivery.. it's so cold!

hm.. andito sya kanina.. wala lang.. di kami nagpansinan.. weird noh? kung bakit pag sa personal nagkakahiyaan.. pero kapag sa ibang paraan ng pagcocommunicate eh sobrang lively.. nakakalungkot isipin.. mahirap maghinala.. mahirap magisip ng kung ano ano.. hindi naman 'kami' eh.. nakakalungkot.. pero ok lang.. mas gusto ko ang buhay single.. kung ang iba ay hindi makuntento sa isa lang.. kuntento na ko sa wala.. madami namang pagpipilian eh... at di ako naiinggit sa iba na meron.. darating din ang panahon ko.. pwede naman ako magkaron ngayon eh.. kaso.. mas gusto ko iprioritize ang studies... kasi, pag andyan na sya.. mahirap na... lalong nagiging komplikado ang dati nang komplikadong buhay.. sa totoo lang.. minsan naiisip ko.. pano kaya kung meron ako.. masaya kaya ako? may respeto ba sya sakin? mahirap kasi pumili eh... di mo lam.. baka magkamali ako.. ayoko na magkamali..sawa na ko.. alam ko di ako perpekto pero mahirap talga magkamali.. lalo na kapag walang paraan para mareverse o mabago ang lahat.. there's no way to turn back time para baguhin ang anumang mga pagkakamali...

*isip isip*

my head's already aching due to so much thinking.. and not just that.. i have to be proud that i am sick today. Should I be proud or not? I should loathe it.

Today, I am making a resolution. For the next entries, I would make them in English and in a formal manner. No ellipsis(...). Appropriate capitalization. I'm gonna be more organized. Part of a pet project. I opt to change myself, rather, modify myself. Could I really do that? I hope so. I hope to make myself more (um, what's the right word?) me. Plain nothing, I just want to improve myself. I would not close my doors on love.