Yesterday, I went to a fieldtrip with Trisha. I wasn't really supposed to go with her but my mom had some business to take care of so I was the one chosen to chaperone Trisha.

We woke up at about 4:30 in the morning. I was excited too. It was already a year and a half since I last went to a fieldtrip. This time, we were going to visit Sugarland, Mad Science, Avilon Zoo, and AMSPEC.

When we arrived at the school there was a bulletin board where papers where posted showing which bus students, chaperones, and teachers are on. We are on Bus No. 4 - Pink. Wow, pink! Seats number 31 and 32. Great.

We left school at around 6:15 in the morning. It was fun there. There was a lady who was to be our bus tour. Her name's Tintin. She taught the kids the origins of some place names. Then she showed and named the sights that we passed. She also brought some flash cards which students are to identify what holidays are shown. It was very educational, for the kids.

SUGARLAND

At last, we already arrived at Sugarland, the home of Jellyace. But we waited in the bus for like half an hour before we were shown inside because, there were already a lot of students who arrived beforehand. So when it's our turn. I was quite disappointed for they hadn't shown us what I was expected to see. First, they taught us about the basic process on how to make a Jellyace. There were absolutely NO DETAILS. Then they toured us around the plant. And it was quite a distance from the machine so we really couldn't see how they make and pack them up close. The chaperones were all quite disappointed. But the kids, I guess they still couldn't expect for more. Then there were free Jellyace for kids! That was at the exit. Then when you walk a bit, there were stands where you buy food and drinks, then of course their products. I got some of the products and then returned to the bus.

MAD SCIENCE

Now, this one was at the mall. Like a movie house turned science showroom. The show was fun, and again it was meant for KIDS to appreciate. I couldn't appreciate the tricks for I know them already. They taught the kids some basic science principles.

The tricks:

1. Magnanimous Mark showed us how to get an egg into a flask. First, it wouldn't fit in the mouth of the flask. But of course, when you put fire inside the flask, the egg would then be sucked in the flask. (I tell you, that's a very easy one.)

2. Next, they showed us tricks using Bernoulli's principle using windbag and a ball and blower. Damn. They're so easy tricks.

3. Next, they just showed dry ice, which is frozen carbon dioxide, to everyone. Of course, the kids were very amazed because they don't know that something like that could make something like a smoke.

Haay. I really got bored watching that show. It was really boooring. There was also a raffle game where the prize was slime. Haha.

AVILON ZOO

This is located in Rizal. It was quite a distance from our home. It was a very long ride and of course, we ate lunch at the bus for there were already students in the place where we should eat lunch. Very well. We also waited an hour for the zoo to let us go in for they were kind of full.

At last, we were shown inside. They gave us tickets then our tour guide toured us around the zoo. Now, this is the best place I've ever been in a fieldtrip. It was the best zoo I've seen to. How I wish I could go there again. It was 7.5 hectares of land. And mind you, It was very tiring to walk the whole of it. It was worth it anyway, for we were shown very amazing and exquisite animals. They even let us touch some of them. There are a lot of animals. Swans, flamingos, ostriches, tarantulas, crocodiles, alligators, lions, tigers, pumas, sun bears, toucans, sheep, horses, tortoises, turtles, owls, eagles, anacondas, boa constrictors, snakes, vipers, iguanas, skunks, raccoons, armadillos, peasants, peacocks, orangutans, gibbons, and a lot more. We had a lot of fun there. And the guide was kind enough to let us have breaks. There was also the Capybaras, the largest rodents. And damn! It was really big. Good thing it doesn't look like a rat. Gosh. How I rate rats. Anyway, it was so big it was as big as a sheep I think. It was bigger than a pig. It was fat and had long hair. Eww. That was the last animal that we saw then we were back at the bus.

Unfortunately, we took such a long time at the zoo that we had no more time to go to AMSPEC. Damn. I wanna see how they make those pencils and crayons but it was fine anyway since I really wanted to rest. I slept on the ride home and so did Trisha. We had so much fun and it was time to rest.

We arrived home at about 6 in the evening. I still watched the Daily news which is 24 oras. Then, Extra Challenge. Then, Mulawin. After that, I went to sleep.

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Ok. I was about to post a pic here from photobucket. But the damned photobucket. Still isn't working. Damn it. How could I get the image url? oh well. I'll post trisha's pic here next time.

Currently feeling: groggy

I received two Globe phone bills early this morning. My mommy gave them to me this morning when she arrived here at the shop.

At first, I thought it was just credit card bill. See, I'm nearsighted and I was doing something else so I didn't mind when it told me about a large amount. I went on with my work.

But after I posted an entry at Tropang Pauso I opened again the envelope. And what I saw really made me cry. So now, tears are flowing down my face.

I checked the bill again. So it was really Globe. I must tell you the story then. I reopened the account last May because Globe asked me to. Since then I was already using my account again. My parents never paid for the monthly bills and it got all piled up. It already reached its credit limit of 5,000 and so they had to redirect the outgoing calls. Then, we still hadn't paid the corresponding amount so they temporarily disconnected my line. We still didn't pay though I was really bugging my parents to pay for it. Then, the disconnection notice came a few days before the disconnection date. We had no way to pay for it. It was so large. We don't even have toiletries at home. Our ref was practically empty. How could we pay for it? I told my parents that if we let it be disconnected we would have to pay a termination fee since it was said in the contract that the account must be active for 2 or more years. And since it was less than 2 years we would be obliged to pay a termination fee. My mom told my dad about it and they still didn't take any action to resolve it.

Now, my mommy's here and she told me that I or my parents should have told her about it so that we could take some action since it was under her name anyway. I'm still crying. I don't know what to do. That bill really sucks. And I'm so UNHAPPY. I'm so unhappy. God, could you see us? How come you did this to us? How come you let us suffer? Had we been so bad that you're doing this to us? How could we get out of this thing? This terrible mess? HOW?!

I'm so mad now. And I still don't know what to do. Come on. Please help me. Tell me what to do. I feel so helpless. Though this isn't solely my problem I'm obliged to delve into it for this is my family. What one's problem is should be the concern of everyone. And damn. We're barely making it through life.

Sometimes, I wake up so late in the morning because I intend not to eat breakfast anymore, so what if I would starve? So what? As long as I'm saving food for later, as long as my siblings could still eat I would be fine. Then when I'm home early, I pretend that I'm tired so I sleep early. Then I wouldn't have to eat dinner. I would just give my share to my other siblings. Good thing I still have clothes to wear. The half of what I had before, I sold during our garage sale. I sold as much clothes as possible so that we could buy food then. Food was the only thing we didn't lack too much. Though we lack everything shampoos in sachets and toothpastes in sachets would do. We don't even have a conditioner now. Before, we buy the biggest Pantene shampoo and Finesse conditioner. We had lots of money before. Before, our ref was so full that we couldn't fit bottles of sandwich spreads anymore. We had lots to eat. We could even order for Pizza. And my allowance from ParSci also helped because I had money to buy for my books and my gifts for my family and friends. Now, I don't even know what Christmas would be like. The previous years, I've been countdowning to Christmas. I already had a Christmas shopping list I could take when I shop for Christmas gifts. Now, I don't even think we would have that Christmas dinner. I'm wondering if we would still see Christmas presents underneath our tree. Would we even set up one Christmas tree? The previous years we had a tree overflowing with gifts. Though mostly were mine, it was still fun for the other members of the family. We would have a great time opening gifts together then showing each everyone what we got from who. I would even save the wrappers. I never destroyed wrappers because I have this belief that it would give me lots of presents for the next Christmas and for the past Christmases it worked. I don't know now if it still would.

If you would just know how it was like to live as me, you wouldn't even want to be me. People are saying that they want to be me. They would say, "It's so fun to be you. You're smart, beautiful, kind, loving, forgiving, grateful and you have a great family. Plus you have that great smile that shows that you don't have problems." If they only knew that behind that smile I'm hiding a lot. That that smile was just a fad so that they wouldn't know my problems. They would let me hear their problems and I was offering a lot of help. I've always wanted to help the needy. If they only knew that I was the one needing a lot of help. If they only knew. But it's a good thing that they didn't know. For then, they wouldn't have allowed me to treat them Ice Cream's everyday. They wouldn't have allowed me to treat them, to help them, to share their problems.

But now, I'm giving it all up to God. My faith is so in Him. He controls me. I'm giving up my will to Him. He could do anything to me now.

I'm so vulnerable now. I hope I wouldn't be led astray. Oh, how easy I am to be influenced. I hope I could fade away. So that I wouldn't have to feel this great burden. But if I die now, I would be another burden. I just hope that God could show us the way now. The way to happiness. The way to freedom. The way to a glorious and peaceful life.

Before, my Christmas wishes were to have lots of beautiful material things. Lots of books, dvds, cds, clothes, bags, perfumes, and shoes. But this time, this Christmas, I would stop dreaming for material things. All I want for Christmas is a real Christmas. Just like what Mary and Joseph had. All I want for Christmas is to be with my family and that we are away from worries. A Christmas we could spend where we wouldn't even think of a single problem. That's all I want for Christmas. Santa, can you give me that? God, please let me have that Christmas. That's all I want now. Nothing else.

Currently listening to: Talk Show on Mute by Incubus
Currently reading: I don't have the means to buy one
Currently feeling: I'm-so-crushed!

The previous entry was a bit dramatic. But it's actually true.

After I've typed everything down, I could now breathe. I've removed that heavy load from my heart and mind. Good thing I have this blog. To write about what I feel.

A while ago, my mom asked me why I was crying. (Well, she didn't see my cry but from instincts and by looking at my eyes, she knew.) I told her that this is a hard life we're living. We have a fiscal crisis in our own home. Terrible. Anyway, I wanna thank everyone who are willing to help. I appreciate your offers. Thank you.

By the way, I missed a lot of people. Haha. In just 2 days I've missed everyone. I guess I miss being here in this shop and being online that's why I've made my third entry(?) for the day. Seems like I got a lot of time on hand.

I wanna go clubbing. David's at Pasig, I think. I forgot where he went. Anyway, there's a celebration there and cool, he's gonna party. Good luck for him. That would be his first time there. Poor him. He got this black eye and a bruise on his lips. Terrible. But he still looks good. And he smells good too. I love his smell. It's Armani in white.

I'm sleepy now. Haha.

What I'm currently wearing: (for nothing)
Red tank top (plain)
my fave jeans which my dad bought from Singapore (it's a low rise bootcut bleached jeans)
white flip flops

God. Oh how I would like to have those cute Havaianas I've seen the last time on the website. How I love to have those. But I gotta hold on to my wants. The only shoes I have now are: this white flip flops, the blue denim platform step-in (which I always wear in school), the mustard colored sandals I bought from Manels, white rubber shoes from Converse, black walking shoes from Nine West, and black calf-length boots (which are too big for me coz I'm only size 6 or 7 but the boots were size 9). God, how konti.

And my clothes were reduced to 50% or less of the original. I could barely fill a closet.

And my bags.. Well, it's a good thing that someone gave me Louis Vuitton bags. She gave me two. But that's the only designer bag I have coz I threw away the old ones. All my bags now are from the local mall and from Ukay-ukays.

But that doesn't matter. Though I would love to live like an Heiress (thinking of Paris Hilton) I would still choose to be what I am now. Just looking at my parent's and sibling's smiles will bring me back down to earth.

Currently feeling: okay

I was cleaning the house this morning and afternoon. I was helping my mom and my other sisters were helping out too. We've rearranged things and we cleaned the house for real. Haha. We were going to sell my bed, it was actually old so it was okay. I got a new bed anyway.

What we did: First, we cleaned the living room. We took the longest time there. Arranging furnitures. paintings. figurines. decorations. tv. dvd player. vintage cds. etc.

Second, we arranged the hallway and we decided to place the computer table where we place our school stuff inside our bedroom so that the hallway would look cleaner and better.

Third, we cleaned the bedroom (my bedroom and my other sister's) and we arranged furnitures again. Damn. There's a lot of dust and cobwebs already in the room. Damn. Then I arranged too the computer table. We got a lot of school supplies. We wouldn't be going to National Bookstore for the next 2 years. Haha.

As I was about to fix my bed, I realized that I still had a typing job to do that would be due 5 pm. and the clock reads 4:30 pm. Great. So I asked my mom if I could go so that I could type it right away. I arrived at G-Unit Net Cafe at around 4:40. There weren't any vacant computers yet so I waited 15 more minutes then I got a seat. I typed it right away and finished 4 pages in the course of 30 minutes. Not bad. I printed it out and made a receipt. Yeah. Money. Haha.

By the way, yesterday, David gave me two hats. Boy, they were so cute and David was kind enough to give them to me. He gave me the same hat in different colors. One was black and one was red. I had the black one before in curduroy cloth but Mariah, my sister, lost it. And I only wore that 2 times. Damn. But now, I could wear one again. This time, it was from David and this time it was of a different material. I think it's a newsboy hat. It's really pretty. I'm gonna wear it maybe the next time I go to the mall. Haha.

Oh. My mom and I adores and digs his smell. He smells so heavenly. How I love his scent. Armani. I also love Hugo Boss and Ralph Lauren.

The best perfume for me would be Ralph Lauren's Ralph and Dolce & Gabbana's Light Blue. But that's for women. :)

Damn. I feel so lonely.

Currently feeling: lonely

I spent last night browsing fashion and designer websites with David. He recommended a lot of good sites. Damn. They're showing American and French fashion. How I love those! Too bad we don't have it here in the Philippines, and too bad that they're really expensive. But I tell you everything's HOT! HOT! HOT!

Here are the sites I checked last night:

babyphat.com
Kimora Lee made that fashion line. Gawd. It's so nice. I like their jeans best. I promise you that you'll LOVE their logo. It's such a cutie. A sexy cat.

armani.com
I so love the whole site. It's full of sophisticated things. Even the music is so sytlish. The site's all about comfort and style. And of course, beauty and elegance. Check it out and see for yourself. P.S. It's uses Flash. P.P.S. David uses armani White and Aqua Di Gio.

christiandior.com
Now, if Armani is classy stylish, Dior is funky stylish. Dior uses a lot of colors and I so love it. Even the music is upbeat. You can even choose the look you want while you're browsing. It's so cool.

polo.com
I love Pink Pony. I love the way pink goes with black. Plus their Ralph Lauren Ralph is really fragrant.

bebe.com
This site is equally fashionable. What I love about Bebe is their Bebe Sport. And such cool lingerie. :) What I don't like about Bebe is their tops look like lingerie to me. :(

shopjlo.com
Fashion line and fragrances of who else but Jennifer Lopez. Good stuff too but The fashion lines kind of ordinary coz you might just see some of her stuff at the local store but hey, it's J.Lo. Plus, she has swimwear! The downside here is that she doesn't have a lot of stuff and that there are mannequins (which I don't like coz she should have models wearing them and not dummies).

bershka.com
This one's from Spain. The fashion line is so trendy and funky. You'll surely go gaga over everything.

That's all that I've seen last night. Damn. Now all I wanna do is go to US and SHOP! SHOP! SHOP! coz fashion there's so HOT! HOT! HOT!

If I'm not penniless now I would've gone straight to America and shop there till I drop! :)

Currently feeling: penniless

I spent this morning browsing babyphat.com.

And I've created a babyphat.com shopping list.

As if!

My mommy was looking over my shoulder while I was making a content page (I haven't finished it yet so it isn't available.) She asked me what I was doing. I said, "My, look at this stuff. Great, ain't it? I wish we have it here in the Philippines. I wish we're gonna win the lottery. ANd I'm gonna buy lots of clothes." Few seconds passed. Then she laughed. I said, "WHy? I'm a normal teenager." She goes, "Yeah I know, I didn't say you're abnormal."

I just shrugged and went back to work. Whatver she meant by laughing. I don't get it. I'm gonna post the shopping list tomorrow. :)

Currently feeling: crazy

I hadn't blogged for 5 days already. A lot has happened. But I would just recount what happened from Friday till today.

Friday

I'm just gonna tell you about the earthquake.

Last Friday, October 8, 2004, an earthquake shook Metro Manila and other parts of Luzon at 10:35 in the evening.

10:35 pm. I was playing Roller Coaster Tycoon 2 here in G-Unit Net Cafe. There were a lot of people here in the shop, including David, my mom, and my 2 brothers. That time, we felt that the computer table was shaking, kind of moving in a wave-like manner. I thought I was just feeling dizzy so I looked around. Upon looking around, I saw that everyone had a different kind of countenance. The whole building was shaking. "Earthquake!" someone said. I was surprised. Then my mom said, "Don't move!" The whole shop was silent. Nobody was making a move. Suddenly, my brother, Mikey, got scared and stood up quick. He was about to go out of the shop. My mom grabbed him behind his back to place him back to his seat. He couldn't go out. It might be dangerous. The earthquake stopped and the land was still. I was still feeling dizzy then. Everyone was still quiet. When at last we couldn't feel anymore tremors, someone at last said a word. I can't remember what it was but it surely started the "earthquake talk." Everyone was wondering, I was wondering as well. And I was a bit scared too. It was my first time to feel an earthquake! I couldn't have enjoyed it, right? But I did somewhat enjoyed the sensation. Iba kasi eh. First time. It feels so different. But it wouldn't be fun if there was damage.

Anyway, before the earthquake, someone had a seizure here in our shop. He had an epilepsy attack. I was really scared then. I didn't know what to do. Though I wasn't the only one to witness the scene, it was really horrible. If you could've seen how he looked like. His body was all twitched up. Including his face. Horrible.

The seizure was STRIKE 1. The earthquake was STRIKE 2. STRIKE 3 occurred when we were going home. We were already near our house then. While we (me, my mom and 2 brothers) were walking along Armstrong Avenue we heard a gunshot. We just continued walking and then someone said, "Wag kayo jan dumaan. May nagbabarilan jan." Then we hurriedly went to the sidewalk to take cover. After sometime, we decided to take a safe route so that we could go home.

At last, we were home. What a very stressful night.

By the way, here's info about the earthquake. Click here.

Saturday

There was nothing really important during the day. The fun part was last night. David invited me to a dinner at Dampa. If you live in Parañaque you would know that it's the place where you can get fresh seafood cooked for you. Special. Anyway, I was invited and we had dinner there with David's friends from his boxing gym. It was great. The food was really good there. I've eaten lots of times at Dampa but we ate at a different place. It was really good there. I had a great time with them.

First, David asked permission from my parents if he could take me to dinner at Dampa since his friend asked him if he wanted to take dinner there. Actually, my parents brought me dinner but then an offer like that shouldn't be put down. Haha. So there, I was allowed to go. I dropped by my house to change clothes that would be more appropriate. And then when I got back here at the shop David started showering me with compliments. Just said thanks with lots of smiles. Haha. So we waited for his friend to come. And then his friend came in a red Honda car. He was Francis, a 35 year old guy who also goes at the same boxing gym that David goes. His boxing gym was the one owned by Manny Pacquiao. Anyway, we had fun in the car. Francis was so funny. He would always joke about David being young and David would joke about Francis being old. Haha. They were funny. They even had "boy talk". The equivalent of "girl talk". And it was fun to here one. They talk about things too. It's nice to hear their viewpoint. Anyway, we arrived at Dampa. The place was called Krisha. Francis and his friend were regulars there so they were always given discounts by the owners. Then, we waited for Mang Nestor to come. He was 'one of the original cast of Eat Bulaga!', David joked. Anyway, they were all kidding around and I was having fun as well. We had Buttered Mussels, Sinigang sa Miso, Gambas, rice, and of course, drinks. I was so full. Promise! David's friend, Mike, dropped by too. We were then 5 at the dinner table. Dinner was through and I offered to pay for my share but David said 'No." He's gonna treat me. He invited me so he's gonna pay for my dinner. That's kind of him. He's so nice to me. He's really a nice guy. And he showed his sweet side to me during dinner. He was a gentleman. Anyway, my mom was telling me about their conversations when they were alone. Haha. They were talking about, who else but, me. David kept asking daw if I had suitors or boyfriends. I had no boyfriend yet and he asked why. He also asked if I was picky. Haha. His questions were so funny. And I know it was gonna lead to something else. Anyway, when I am alone with David, he doesn't talk like that. We talk about something else. We even had a talk about pornography. He had a collection. Haha. Alright, then he told me some personal details. Getting to know who he is. I know he had a lot of experience with girls coz he was from the States, that's why I'm kinda on guard. You never know what's going to happen.

Anyway, last night my mom and I thought that no one's gonna walk us home since David had his friend Mike over at his house. They were drinking, of course. And they might be watching porn too. Haha. Anyway, Mike reminded me of Rhalph. Same build. Mike is fat and so is Rhalph. They both have eyeglasses. And they're both short but Mike was shorter. Mike was shorter than me and Rhalph was taller than me. Anyway, David brought my mom a drink. Dalandan soda with gin. I had a drink too. It was good and it really got my head buzzing. Anyway, I was too tired and too sleepy to walk home but fortunately, I made it home awake. David and Mike both walked us home. Thanks to them, they were very kind. And if they hadn't walked us home, we might have ended falling asleep on the street. Haha.

So that was Saturday night.

Sunday

This morning, my family went to church since my dad was part of the choir. His voice was really good. Damn. I wish I had inherited that voice of him. So good a singer. After the mass, I finally got what I wished for. A trip to the mall. That was my first time to go back to the mall after I got sick. That was probably 2 or 3 months now. What a pathetic loser I am. Anyway, I got to shop (window shopping). Though it's only window shopping it was okay. I visited Manels, Mendrez, Shoe Salon, Nafnaf, and Bench. Also the Department Store. Anyway, I bought toiletries. I bought lip balm too since I was pleading for one coz my lips were really dry and needed some therapy. Before window shopping, we ate at the foodcourt. Grabe, if you would know how we lived before you wouldn't even think that we would eat there as a family. But then, we're poor. We have no money. So we have all the rights to eat there and we have no right to eat at some fancy restaurant. It's ok. As long as I'm with the family, we could eat wherever we want. Just not garbage. Window shopping sucks! Coz I know that the more I window shopped the more my need for money would grow. I haven't got a new shoe since last year. No new clothes either. No new bag. Everything I have was a year older or more. I even have a shirt that was more than 5 years old. Haha. I tried on some shoes at Mendrez and damn coz it looks so good on me. Haha. Especially on what I was wearing. But then, I had to hold on to my wants. I even dissed the thought of trying another pair for it would just frustrate me more. Damn. I wish we could have won the lottery. Going to the mall really sucks if you don't have money. I'm gonna promise myself that if ever I got money I would spend it so wisely on things. I would buy things for myself once a week. Haha. I could not afford to shop more than once a week. Note: the previous 2 statements were nothing coz I don't even have money to spend. Note again: I don't have any money.

By the way, I feel so frustrated now while writing this. Life sucks. I want a life full of wonderful and beautiful things. Not this kind of life I'm in now.

Currently feeling: frustrated

Starstruck is back!

Yesterday, I just stayed at G-Unit Net Cafe for two hours. The reason? I'm gonna watch Starstruck!

Yes, Starstruck. Why not? I've always wanted to be a star. Haha. But a Hollywood star. (As if.) Anyway, it was FUN watching it last night. The hosts now were Dingdong Dantes and Jolina Magdangal. And it's the search for to-be-stars aged 14-17. I should have gone to the auditions but you know, I'm too shy. Haha. I've passed up the chance to be a star. Even teens with showbiz connections still auditioned there. Anyway, at the end of the program, they showed what they're going to show today. And I saw Tats. Haha. One of the wanna-bes. She's tall and model thin. She's a winner of "Ganda ng Pare Ko", a contest at GMA. She lives here at Moonwalk Village. And she hates me. Yeah. She's so plastic, I see her as that. She even calls me "cybergirl" behind my back. Now, how childish can you get? Anyway, enough with her. I'm gonna watch Starstruck again tonight. I liked last night's episode "Starstruck Secrets Revealed". They showed never before seen footages. It was fun. And tonight, they're still going to feature the first Final 14.

I wanna be a star too! But, I'm a dreamer. Why I'm so shy was that my parents never encouraged me. Oh yes they did coz they want us all three girls to be in showbiz so that we'll earn lots of money. I told them we should hang out at the malls to get discovered. Haha. Anyway, it's kinda pathetic. But really, if they didn't only said that my voice sucks, I could have auditioned a long time ago.

So much for regret. I know there's a lot of opportunity out there for me to take. Life's short and I'm gonna make the most of my life. Promise!

Currently feeling: bouncy

Oh God! God is so good to us! We have DSL now, here at G-Unit Net Cafe.

Actually, DSL was not yet available here but the boss at PLDT did some magic and yes! at last, we're on DSL now. At least, a lot of people are gonna come here now coz we have fast internet. Before, with a dial-up and a speed of 28.8 kbps the bandwidth was shared with 10 computers. Imagine that if everyone goes to the internet, the server would be so slow that they have to wait for a lot of minutes just to finish loading up their sites. But now, since we have DSL, even if all the computers are on Gunbound, an internet game, there would be no lag in the system. Haha. Kudos to that.

I feel so kilig. excited.

Thanks to PLDT.

We are now on

Currently feeling: kilig

I've been having series of nightmares since I was just in highschool.

Nightmares?

Yeah, I don't know. They haunt me every night. Every nightmare has its own story to tell.

What do I dream about?

I dream that I was being killed. The nightmares always end up when I was killed.

Do they ever end? Do they change plot?

They end when the killer was revealed. And another story replaced the previous. A similar dream would recur until the killer was revealed.

Can I tell you about my dreams?

I'll tell you some of my dreams when I can speak freely of it. Right now, I'm still in a state of shock.

Can I identify the killers?

Yes. The 3rd to the last dream I had Rhalph as the killer. Then the next was some old lady. Then last night, I was killed by a snake.

Am I getting scared?

I am freaking out!

Help!

Currently feeling: scared

I've had a lot of nightmares since I was born. Who hadn't? Anyway, here's the first nightmare I can ever remember.

I was 6 yrs. old when I had this nightmare. I was a kid too in the dream. I was wearing a pure white sunday dress. All laced and trimmed up. I look like a walking doll. It was night. Totally dark. And there's a pool party. As I was going to get something out of our car, I was grabbed at my head and was punched hard so I can hardly keep my eyes open. Then a black handkerchief was pulled over my face. I couldn't see a thing. Next thing I know, they were beating me up real bad. I was all bruised up. The hanky was off my face and I had no underwear on. I was bleeding too.

I was gangraped. At 6 yrs. old.

Can you imagine a little girl having that kind of nightmare? Doesn't that scare you too?

Currently feeling: bruised

I got this from dreammoods.com and it's pretty cool.

Ok. I was going to write here a lot of article but I think it would be better if you would just browse that site. It's pretty cool you know.

Just check it out. It's fun.

Currently feeling: dreamy

All the excerpts are from dreammoods.com

Remember my previous entry about my having nightmares every night?

Nightmare

A nightmare is a disturbing dream that causes the dreamer to wake up feeling anxious and frightened. Nightmares may be a response to real life trauma and situations. These type of nightmares fall under a special category called Post-traumatic stress nightmare (PSN). Nightmares may also occur because we have ignored or refused to accept a particular life situation. Research shows that most people who have regular nightmares have had a family history of psychiatric problems, bad drug experiences, people who have contemplated suicide, and/or rocky relationships. Nightmares are an indication of a fear that needs to be acknowledged and confronted. It is a way for our subconscious to make up take notice. "Pay attention!"


And remember when I said that they just stop recurring when the problem's solved or when my killer was identified?

Recurring Dreams

Recurring dreams repeat themselves with little variation in story or theme. These dreams may be positive, but most often they are nightmares. Dreams may recur because a conflict depicted in the dream remains unresolved and ignored. Once you have found a resolution to the problem, your recurring dreams may cease.



** That was so true in my case. So I have recurring dreams which are nightmares. Damn! I wish they would just leave me alone. I would like to dream more about love, romance, and friendship. And all of them in lucid dreams. Haha.

Lucid Dream

Lucid dreams occurs when you realize you are dreaming in the middle of your dream. "Wait a second. This is only a dream!" Most dreamers wake themselves up once they realize that they are only dreaming. Other dreamers have cultivated the skill to remain in the lucid state of dreaming. They become an active participant in their dream, make decisions in their dreams and influence the dream's outcome without awakening.



Click here for information about nightmares. aka. in-depth analysis of nightmares.

Currently feeling: still freaked out

Oh well.. Since Friday, I have been busy studying Adobe Photoshop. Damn. But I'm really learning. On my own. I'm gonna finish my new look for this site. It's gonna be best viewed in 1024x768 and in full screen. Since I'm gonna be using CSS and the center div is fluid (which sucks!) maybe I should just make it in tables and divs. what do you think?

Currently feeling: anxious

*sigh*

At last, I've finished making a new layout for my page. I've been working on this for 2 days. Damn. I've given all credits to where it's due. *Thank God*

Anyway, Let me know what you think of my new layout.

and

REMEMBER:

Always view this in a 1024x768 resolution.. and please, maximize your window.

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I've created my whole layout in CSS style that's why the center division is fluid. And it would make things look distorted if the window is not maximized and if the resolution is not appropriate.

I've encoded everything here on my own. Guess I'm learning HTML now, huh?

I've been studying. :)

If you encounter any problem please don't hesitate to tell me. I would be willing to fix it up for you. OK?

:) I'm so darn happy. My smile reaches up to my ears. Haha. what a big smile.

Guess this layout would stay till the end of the year.

Currently feeling: accomplished

Ok. since I realized too (with the help of some bloggers' comments) that my site has a lot of graphics. I would change the subheadings. Because they're all images. I'll change them to simple text. What do you think? or do you think my site is ok this way? I'll be changing the headers tomorrow or the next day maybe. Need your comments!

Currently listening to: If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys

Currently feeling: confused

ok. I've changed my subheadings. Instead of images, I placed texts instead so that it wouldn't take too much time to download and so that there would be less graphics. I don't wanna overload my site with graphics. anyway, tell me what you think about it.

Some says that it takes much time to download on maybe (slow) ISPs or those with less bandwidth. So i'm gonna ask ISP users to please check out my site and tell me if it takes a lot of time to show up. I can't test it on mine and on other DSL users, eh. Thanks.

Currently listening to: Let's Get It Started by Black Eyed Peas

Currently feeling: calm

I can't believe it! It's already Wednesday. I thought it was just Tuesday, honestly.

Oh well. Time flies so fast. Apparently, there was a problem regarding posting a comment here in my site. I don't know what the problem is. Promise. But hopefully it would soon be fixed by Roy, the tabulas master.

Anyway, I changed the welcome message on this blog and then I've updated my "Tabulas Friends" and then I've added a link button.

At last, I hope I'm through with the layouting. Anyway, I've also updated some sections. Oh well. I don't know.

I have been doing NOTHING lately. Read that: NOTHING.

I'm so BORED. Could someone give me something to do?

I wish I could go to the mall.

Yesterday, I've been at Aprille's house yesterday. There was a supposedly meeting for the yearbook. But that meeting turned out to be one get together. Hell, I've been dying to see my high school friends. And damn right, I was so happy yesterday. It's like my wish was granted. Haha.

The one thing that I couldn't forget for the rest of my life is this:

(Theresa told us this story that actually happened to vikka.)

Vikka's Version

Vikka: (while in a jeep) Miss, (to some lady) pakiabot po. Bayad.
Lady: (after handing the fare to the driver said to Vikka with a raised eyebrow) Miss, mukha ba kong taga-abot ng barya?
Vikka: (just sat without saying a word)

And this is Ida's Version

Vikka*: (while in a jeep) Miss, (to some lady) pakiabot po. Bayad.
Lady: (after handing the fare to the driver said to Vikka* with a raised eyebrow) Miss, mukha ba kong taga-abot ng barya?
Ida: (instead of saying nothing says,) Hindi, mukha kang barya.

Wow! Si Ida talga. Always the mataray girl. Idol. A definite pambara.

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Anyway, David applied for a job last Monday at a call center. A friend who he met at Baywalk helped him apply for the job. Man, the call center's paying a minimum of 15K for their staff. Haha. That easy to make money. Hopefully, David would get the job since he passed all 4 tests and he even scored highest on the English test. Why not? He's from the States. David's so intelligent. I'm praying that he would get the job so that his financial problems would be solved. He's living on his own so it isn't easy to get money. His mother doesn't support him, bad. Anyway, he's got a lot of expenses and he needs money really. He's paying for rent, gym, and other things. Plus of course, the food and stuff. His pad is not even complete yet. He still lacks things in the kitchen that's why he can't cook yet. Btw, he doesn't know how to cook, aside from the instant foods. Haha. that's why my mom's gonna teach him how to cook. but first, he need to go to the grocery. Which reminds me, I want to go the mall. TO SHOP. TO DO THE GROCERY. TO EAT. TO WATCH A MOVIE. TO SHOP AGAIN.

It's nearing Christmas and we might not decorate this year. We can't feel the Christmas season. Everything seems so wrong. There's still the fight between my mama and my grandma aka mommy. We have no money. We couldn't even buy gifts for one another. I'm so gonna miss Christmas. I wouldn't see the Christmas tree this year. I would miss the presents under the Christmas tree. Hopefully, I would still receive presents. Good ones I hope. Which reminds me of the present I hate the most which I received last year.

Damn. I hate it so much. It has no value. Considering that it our last year at high school. Considering that we were close before. Considering everything that happened between us. But anyway, past is past. And all that I want to remember about us are the good memories.

Argh.

Currently feeling: cold

I need someone... Someone who'll...

comfort me especially when I feel down.

hug me so tight that I feel so secure.

kiss me so tenderly.

make me feel loved.

make all my problems go away (at least, apparently).

watch movies with me.

never get tired of being with me.

understand me.

understand my family.

hug me while I'm sleeping.

hold my hand always.

eat with me.

make me feel secure.

laugh with me.

make me feel comfortable always.

make me glow.

hug and kiss me.

hold my hand even while strolling.

look at me as though I'm the prettiest person in the whole world.

help me make my dreams come true.

love me much.

Currently feeling: needy

okay. this is a test entry. to see if my blog entries here would appear on my friendster profile. :)

Currently feeling: lazy

Ok. I'm gonna be making a new site where I would post all the Audio Streaming Format(ASF) files I have or I know. I actually got them from a trusted source. But you know, it would be fun to start my own.


What is ASF exactly?

go check google for that. Haha. kidding. It's a file that can be an audio or a video one. It's uploaded through a server and instead of downloading the whole thing before seeing or hearing the file, asf makes it possible for you to see or hear it as soon as you click on play. (That is after the buffering and such).

So do you think I should still put up this MUSIC SITE?

Wouldn't it be cool? There would also be a Tutorial soon. Things like how to place music on your site, how to make a drop-down playlist and how to customize it. I would also make a request page where you can ask or request for the ASF of your favorite music.

Actually, you use them for your background music. You can have one or you can have many (just like mine, I have a dropdown menu). So what do you think?

would it be cool? or not?

Please make a comment and let me know what you think.


why do i wanna do this anyway?

nothing. I'm just doing this for myself. Just for fun. And also to help others who are struggling*.

so please make a comment and let me know what you think. Please.

I would wait till I get 25 or More (better) till I get started working on that site. It would be on tabulas so that it would be cool. Don't you think so? Or do you think my own site would be better?

Currently feeling: energetic

I'm so happy that my mom cooked Korean Beef Stew yesterday. It had been a long time since she made that and it was her specialty. LOVE IT so much!

Anyway, I don't know what's up to me this days. It's like I'm in a bad mood or something. Parang sinusumpong ata ako. And that's a bad thing. Coz I like expose to everyone my bad side. Eww.

And I'm feeling bad now.

Why?

Coz I told David bad things. Oh my God. I'm about to cry. Everything's bugging me and out of the blue, I just said that he's discriminating.

Well, I see the way he acts towards the maids/chimays and man, he's mean towards them. Haha. I mean we're all human right? But the situation is, our neighbor shop has some 3 girls that takes care of the Ukay-ukay shop beside our Internet Cafe. And then, those girls were flirting with him or were trying insanely to catch his attention. Gosh. And then when you ask him about it, he would make a very disgusted-like gesture and grunt. Suggests that he dislikes those. And then, there was this dark girl there and he totally dislikes that. I can see from the way he speaks about it. My mom said it was bad the way David acts. Haha. Parang mapanlait (but of course, it's not that bad naman.)

And we all know that Filipinos can sometimes mix the f's and p's, and the b's and v's. And in America, they call Filipinos with that accent a fob. Isn't that mean? Isn't that discriminating? Tell me if I'm right or wrong. And I was just sympathizing with the poor guys. Fortunately, I don't have a funny accent. he calls Filipinos like that fobs. Damn.

And then there's also a thing about his dislike for gays. Well, we know that being a homosexual is entirely wrong for God created only men and women. But then, couldn't David be more understanding? I understand gays. Man, I have gay friends. And it's like I'm afraid to maybe introduce them to him since you know, he might not like them for they're gay.

I'm feeling so trapped.

Help.

Please help me. I can't understand him. sometimes, between all his weird times. I just wanted to say, "You know David, sometimes I just don't understand you."

I always felt like saying that. It's so hard. I'm afraid that he would get angry. I don't want him to get mad at me.

I don't want anyone to get mad at me. That's why I'm a pathetic people pleaser. I'll do anything just so everyone'll like me. I'll adjust to everyone. But sometimes, when I get tired. I lash out. I get so mad and get angry at other innocent people. And David's a victim of my insanity. How am I gonna make it up to him? I can't seem to look at him in the eye now. It's like I would melt. I just wanted to die sometimes when I'm in between bouts of anxiety and insanity.

I also get insane when David's acting weird. Sometimes, he acts out movie scripts, or he makes and acts it out. And sometimes, in the middle of something serious he would act out mad and I would just *jaw-drop. I'm dumbfounded. I can't say a word. And then, he says that he's just playing. Haha.

Sometimes, I would just laugh so I won't take things too seriously but damn it's making me crazy. Haha.

He's a great actor and he can make me believe that he really is feeling mad (when he acts). He's just so convincing.

Pwede sya mag-artista. Pero ayaw niya ata.

Anyway, he's selling his XBOX coz he needs money. So if anyone needs an XBOX it's still in excellent condition, guys, just contact me. And we'll discuss it. :-D ok?

I'll post the advertisement on my next post.

And please tell me what you think about what I did. :( I feel so gloomy and frustrated.

Currently feeling: gloomy and frustrated

My friend David is selling his XBOX

XBOX FOR SALE!
15 K or best offer

Includes:
2 original controllers (DUKES)
DVD remote and sensor
10 up-to-date games

*excellent condition
*straight from America

Contact: Me or David at (0916)2931039

Currently feeling: depressed

2 more weeks and I'll be in UP again. Haay. I can't wait to be in UP again. It feels like home there. haha. I'll be going to UP Manila on November 2 for our enrollment.

Anyway, my sister Mariah is infected with measles. Hope she'll get well soon. I don't want to get measles. My life would be in danger again, and I don't want that to happen.

I've been camwhoring with my mom. I'll post pictures next time. We even took videos. (3 videos, actually). Haha. We are so camwhores. :)

Currently feeling: flirty

Premenstrual Syndrome: PMS is a disorder characterized by a set of hormonal changes that trigger disruptive symptoms in a significant number of women for up to two weeks prior to menstruation. Of the estimated 40 million suffers, more than 5 million require medical treatment for marked mood and behavioral changes. Often symptoms tend to taper off with menstruation and women remain symptom-free until the two weeks or so prior to the next menstrual period. These regularly recurring symptoms from ovulation until menses typify PMS, premenstrual syndrome.

Characteristics
Over 150 symptoms have been attributed to PMS. After complaints of feeling "out of control", anxious, depressed and having uncontrollable crying spells, the most common complaints are headache and fatigue. But symptoms may vary from month to month and there may even be symptom-free months. No women present with all the PMS symptoms. Characteristically symptoms may be both physical and emotional. They may include physical symptoms as headache, migraine, fluid retention, fatigue, constipation, painful joints, backache, abdominal cramping, heart palpitations and weight gain. Emotional and behavioral changes may include anxiety, depression, irritability, panic attacks, tension,lack of co-ordination, decreased work or social performance and altered libido.

Originally described in 1931 by an American neurologist, the grouping of symptoms has remained the same:

A- Anxiety: irritable, crying without reason, verbally and sometimes physically abuse, feeling "out of control", or Dr. Jekyl-Mr. Hyde behavior changes.

D- Depression: confused, clumsy, forgetful, withdrawn, fearful, paranoid, suicidal thoughts and rarely suicidal actions.

C- Cravings: food cravings, usually for sweets or chocolate; diary products including cheese, an on occasion, alcohol or food in general.

H- Heaviness or Headache: Fluid retention leading to headache, breast tenderness, abdominal bloating and weight gain.

Aside from the regularity of symptoms seen prior to menstruation, there are certain elements which distinguish PMS from other disorders:

*PMS may often be triggered by hormonal changes. It tends to begin at puberty, after pregnancy, after starting birth control pills, after hormone related surgery as hysterectomy or tubal ligation or around the onset of the menopause. In fact, it is not unusual for the PMS sufferer to confuse her symptoms with those of an early menopause.

*Lifting of symptoms (including headache) with pregnancy, especially in the second and third trimester.

*Heredity appears to be a factor although specific symptoms may differ between sisters or mother and daughters.

*There is often an aura of increased activity prior to the worse symptoms of PMS or migraines. At this time, the woman may clean the house, function with little sleep, and feel euphoric. This is followed by the PMS symptoms, migraine, fatigue, exhaustion, depression and the inability to function. Women typically feel "out of control" at this time and this can cause the signs and symptoms of depression.

The preceding article was taken from here.

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Should I blame PMS for my anxiety problems? Should I? It seems like I'm one of the females inflicted with the-dreadful-PMS.

I don't want to experience PMS. It hurts me so much. I'm being such a bad girl when I'm about to or having my monthly period. I get irritable most often and I feel like clamming up. My bad.

Anyway, I'm going to a concert here in our village on Saturday night. Actually, it's Manie's concert. Manie Giron is some girl from Parkview. She's a punk girl. And David usually hangs out a lot with her.

Miguel, David's nephew, invited me to that concert. Heck, David didn't even bother to invite me. When my mom asked him if he's going to Manie's concert, he was surprised that my mom knew about it, and was not sure whether to answer yes or no. And then he said yes. And asked why my mom knew and other things.

Why am I feeling this? Damn. I hate it.

Anyway, I was planning to place pictures here but unfortunately, Photobucket doesn't allow new users to sign up for free since they are upgrading their servers. And that's bad news for me. I need to sign up for a new account since my current account's about to exceed bandwidth limit.

And before that happens I have to take necessary actions. Please help me find a new image host. (my tabulas gallery is full with pictures)

Recommendations for good image hosts would be extremely appreciated. Thanks.

Currently feeling: jealous

Even if I'm a Filipina and I'm a shopaholic, I've never been to Tutuban. It's my first time to be there. And whoah! It's a shopaholic's haven. The goods there are so cheap! They're in good quality and they're very affordable.

That's why I've done my back-to-school shopping with my mom.

What I've bought:

2 watches (one strap made of jelly and one of plastic) Why are the straps not of leather or metal? Because I'm allergic to them!

2 pants (1 bleached jeans and 1 pink pants) The pink one is so cute!

2 3/4 sleeved shirts in different colors (they are so cheap! and they're pretty)

1 t-shirt (the one with layers)

1 belt (dark green in color)

1 jelly bag (blue)

I actually was planning to buy 2 sneakers, 2 flat sandals (with straps), more belts, more shirts, and more jeans unfortunately, it was already 5 pm.. and we have to go soon to avoid the traffic. Nevertheless, we still got caught in the traffic!

I'm hoping that I'll be back in Tutuban soon!

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How I've started the day

This day started out really great. Mom woke me up early because she's gonna take me shopping. That made my day. I've so been longing to shop!

Anyway, the day was fine. Got kare-kare for lunch. Yum!Yum! And then we left our house by 11 I think. And then, we were gonna commute. That's ok coz if we're gonna bring the car it would just be trouble for us.. So we took public transport.

We were there I think by 12 noon. We started out at the Tutuban Center Mall. Man, there are lots of bags, shoes and watches there. I was hoping to buy sneakers. They're fake but they look like the original ones and they costs a lot cheaper. Only P380 a pair. But then, I was already busy looking for bags. I got a jelly bag the color of blue. I was also wanting to buy adidas or nike sneakers but my mom was pulling me away. Haha. So much for sneakers.

We then went to the Tutuban Cluster Mall. It's like a bigger Baclaran mall. Anyway, we've found a great pair of sandals. They're flat and they're cheap too. Looks like the one at Shoe Salon. Anyway, the size 7 that they have for that pair was big on me. They don't have any smaller size. There's not a store like that anymore and gosh! If I'm gonna have it I would wear it almost everyday. Haha. It's very unique and very stylish. Damn. Gotta have it next time!

Then, we went to look for tops and jeans. We've found really nice tops but the fact that they're too showy to wear to school hindered me from having nice tops. They're showing too much skin. Therefore, we were on a search for a modest top. Damn. There are lot of good finds there and they're all affordable. Very cheap!

Then after Tutuban Cluster Mall we went to Tutuban Prime Building. I almost got lost at the Tutuban Prime Building. It was my first time there so I'm not used to it. Hopefully my mom's with me. We even saw Joy Viado(a local actress) there. Haha. I'm taller than her. yeah!

Saw lots of good stuff there. Actually if you want nice bags, tops, and bottoms, go to Tutuban. But if you're looking for nice sandals, you won't find any! They have fake Dior and Louis Vuitton shoes there but then, it really looks fake. haha. The bags there are really great too. The fake bags, I mean.

Haay. Shopping really makes me feel good!

Currently listening to: Blue and Yellow by The Used
Currently reading: Little Town on the Prairie
Currently feeling: shopaholic

Thanks to moonsilk for recommending LightBox7 to me.

I've been uploading images there since Photobucket still won't accept new Free account users.

Anyway, here are the images that I was supposed to post with the previous entries.

Mama and Me
Camwhoring. Haha. We were even taking movies from the webcam.

Hands Below the Chin
taray!

Camera Shy
That's after we went shopping.

Tiring Look
After shopping. whew!

David at the gym
That's David training at Wildcard Gym

Me and David
Hanging out at Dampa

David at Baywalk
Lots of beer huh?

David in his car
Wanna ride?

Manie and David
Hanging out at Baywalk

Manie and David cheers!
Lots of drink too.. Cheers!

Baywalk here they come!
Manie with friends

Baywalk Arrest
Manie with friends

Tongues out!
David rockin'

Manie and David
Stolen shot?

David rockin out!
cool pic huh?

Club Baywalk
Manie with her friends

Manie
with a friend

Whew! That's a lot!

Currently listening to: My Boo by Usher and Alicia Keys

Currently feeling: amused

David went for his interview early this morning. Good thing he got accepted. He now officially has a job!

He'll be reporting there at the call center on November 2, 12mn to 8am.

Gosh. He's on night shift. That would be hard but then, that's better than no job at all. At least he'll be earning enough money to support himself.

Congratulations, David!

Currently feeling: cheerful

Since the last time I posted an entry which was October 28 2004, I've read two books. Little Town on the Prairie by Laura Ingalls Wilder and Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. I really like Tuesdays with Morrie. It's such a great book. I feel that I've started to appreciate life more. So I'll learn first how to die then I'll know how to live. He has such magical words that are purely truth.

I've also been very active at the Tabulas Forum. Roy has been so good to us Tabulas users.

Tonight, I'm going out. Hopefully to relieve some stress. Migz has invited me to watch the Takutan Band Festival here in our village. And that's where I'm going tonight at 8 pm.

This afternoon, I've been shedding buckets of tears.

I have a serious problem. If you've been reading a lot here in my blog, you would probably guess what my problem is.

My grandmother came here at the shop and she was explaining things. She was contradicting my mom. I don't know who to take sides on because both of them are right and wrong one way or another. They both have faults that they don't want to acknowledge. I wish I have a loving family.

I'll continue this later because I have to go dress up and eat.

See y'all later. lovelots.

P.S. I've been into Blog Explosion lately. My site has received 25 visits since I've registered there which was 2 days ago. Anyway, I'll be hoping that my site would receive a lot of traffic later on.

Currently feeling: anxious

Last night together with Mikey (my brother), Miguel, and Kelly, I attended the Takutan Band Festival.

The Takutan Band Festival was held at the Phimra, a gym located near the Church in our village. It was sponsored by a Fraternity, Tau Gamma Phi, I think.

When we arrived there we were mistaken for Dice & K9. Haha. Is that a compliment or what? Dice & K9 was the group famous for the song "Itsumo".

The song is a bit jologs, but heck they're Filipinos too. Haha. So much for being jologs.

When we entered Phimra, it was really dark there. The festival was said to start at 8 pm but it's already 9 pm and they're still setting up.

Soon, the first band started playing. Every band there was rock. They're all punks. Anyway, the first one I didn't kind of like coz the guys voice was not good for me. It's boring.

While the 1st band was playing, we claimed our free drinks at the booth. The available drinks were: San Mig Light, Strong Ice, Coke, and Sprite. I got Coke of course. They don't serve Iced Tea. Who would on a rock concert? Haha.

So the 2nd band was all girls. That band was good!

Anyway, the third one was the best for me. That band was real rock and played great music. Plus I like the guy's voice.

The fourth one made me yawn. 'Nuff said.

The fifth one was Manie's group. She's the lead guitarist. The band was cool too. They played Evanescence. But being humble as I am, I sing Evanescence better than their vocalist. Damn. Their vocalist couldn't even get to the beat. Or was it purposely made to be like that? I don't know. But I like their outfits. Manie's sister was the drummer. And whoah! Astounding. The drummer was great.

While Manie's band was playing I heard someone calling my name. "Monique". I turned and saw someone pointing at me. It's a girl. I walked towards the girl. And guess who it turned out to be? SAMANTHA. She's one of my friends. A true blue kikay. Anyway, I didn't expect to see her there and so did she. She was with her boyfriend, Kiko. She wasn't expecting to see me there too. Wow! She's in our village. Haha. And to think that that was the 1st time she saw me since graduation. Mind you, I changed a lot in appearance. She even minded my manicured nails. Haha. She must have been surprised. She told me that her family has a bar somewhere in Better Living Subdivision, "Some Place" it is. :)

Anyway, my mom texted me that we should go home now since we're closing the shop. So we went to Manie and said that we're going. She's very friendly. I like her. She's cute and astig too!

I've never seen such a small lady carry an electric guitar.

Anyway, I went over to Samantha's and told her that I'm going home now.

Said goodbyes. And we were off.

It was raining. So we ran towards the Tricycle Depot. (depot? what a word!)

I was about to blog about this last night but then, we were closing the shop.

By the way, David's been acting weird lately. It's like he's moving away from me and my mom. He's not talking to us lately. Wonder why? My mom's bugged too!

Switch to camwhoring mode.

I'm posting pictures now. As always, click the image for full size.

Me
1st digicam image. This is what I look now after I got sick. October 28, 2004

Me with David
That's us. Haha. We look funny in our pambahay attire. October 28, 2004

My Pink Nails
2nd Time I got my nails manicured, I painted them pink. The first time was French manicured. :)

Posing
for what? Nothing.

Taken by Me
The battery of the digicam was running out. I took that picture by myself. Pacute!

Me with Trisha
That's my baby sister Trisha. Ain't we cute!

Funny Face Version: Maria
Look at that! We were trying a funny look. Crossed eyes and tongues out!

Funny Face Version: Moniq
Look at that! We were trying a funny look. Crossed eyes and tongues out!

Funny Face Version: Trish
Look at that! We were trying a funny look. Crossed eyes and tongues out!

Funny Face Version: Trio
Look at that! We were trying a funny look. Crossed eyes and tongues out! This time it's the three of us.

Raised Eyebrows
That's what I look like with raised eyebrows.

Sadako Look
That's my eye peeking out.

Sadako Version: Trio
Haha. We were trying the Sadako look.

Sadako Version: Monique
Sadako coming out from the screen? No, that's me crawling towards Mariah.

Hanging Out
That's me and my barkada hanging out before the Recognition Day at Parsci.

Friends
That's (from L-R) Thesa E, Demi, Kem, Nenita, and Ike.

Me with Friends
That's (from L-R) Demi, Kemkem, Nenita, me, and Ike.

Faidah and Me
Faidah and Me. That's my "sis".

At Chowking
Me and my barkada hanging out at Chowking

Chowking
Barkada hanging out at Chowking.

Let's eat!
That's me and my friends at Chowking.

Marvin and Me
That's my good friend Marvin and me.

Perfect 10 - 1
Haha. Look at my hair. It's very long, indeed.

Perfect 10 - 2
That's still my hair.

Trisha's Grad
That's (from L-R) my mom, Trisha, my dad, and me.

The Trio on the stage
That's me, Trisha, and Mariah.

Now that's camwhoring!

Currently feeling: crazy